Emotions!!

Well we didn't get good news from our insurance they didn't feel that there was a need for it and because it is a fertility drug they will not cover it so it would be $211.00 out of pocket if the Clomid doesn't work. So I started on March 20th and I am on Clomid insurance doesn't cover this either but it's only $34.00 out of pocket and your more likely to get twins on this! We would be so excited to have twins I have no idea why but I would be so excited! So I am taking 2 50mg pills a day so 100mg total....That's a ton considering that Zack mom got pregnant on just 25mg and got twins! CRAZY!! This medicine has the most waked side effects...HEADACHES....BLURY VISION....MOOD SWINGS....HOT FLASHES! Not very fun but I know that it will be worth it in the end! I am on Day 6 today of the cycle so I have tom to take my last 100mg of Clomid then I start Estradiol from day 8 to ovulation. I have an appointment on April 1st for my ultrasound and that is when we will find out if we are pregnant or not I am really trying not to get my hopes up but it's so hard not to when we have been trying for about a year now! Zack is super excited he keeps telling me that our babies are going to be spoiled and that we are not going to go the cheap route if we are going to do this then we are going to buy quality stuff to last along time! I love Zack and he is the best supporter ever!

WHAT A WONDERFUL HUSBAND I HAVE!

So I found these pictures on my camera today and just really wanted to share them of how beautiful they are and how much I Love my Husband and everything that he does for us!!

I Love You Zack!

If you have a wonderful man, who helps balance your whole world, who isn't perfect, but is perfect for you. Who works hard and would do anything for you, who makes you laugh and drives you crazy, who is your best friend, who you want to grow old with, and who you are thankful for everyday, and who you could not live without then tell them you love them everyday.

I HAVE THE BEST ONE!

Life Of The Traveling Husband....

I swear that I just get Zack back and he is gone again...It's not fair!!! He was in St.George last week working and getting a sunburn in the warm weather. He was really excited for the ride home cause he found out that he gets to drive his bosses Corvette home...My first thought was there goes our Insurance! Zack didn't like that to much! He got the biggest kick out of it and couldn't wait to get the pedal to the metal, he was excited to report that he got it to 120mph and I said that I could have went all day not knowing that..But he was excited about it so whatever. He got home around 6:00pm Friday and then found out that he is leaving for Pueblo Colorado on Sunday so just home long enough to wash clothes and pack them back up. I hate when he leaves on a Sunday it makes for a really long week. Saturday March 2011 was the Sportsman Expo at the South Town Expo Center and we just couldn't miss it so I said ok to going cause the only way that I would get to spend time with Zack was if I went and I like those kind of things anyways so what the heck, we spent all day walked around for about 5 hours, ran into my brother and sister-in-law Tim and Keara and the Cutest baby Kaleb love him I have a really cute Picture of Zack and Kaleb playing on the big boy toys they had at the show I will post the picture! We finally got home and had dinner and then we had to get home to pack for Zack to head out by 9am Sunday! So I woke up at about 8:30 which is really late for me and went in to ask Zack when is needs to leave, he said that he needs to pick up Doug at 8:30 I said "HONEY" It's 8:30!!! He flew out of bed and was in a panic!!! So of course he was late and I just got a phone call that he is in Laramie, Wyoming and they blew out a tire so they are at Walmart hanging out until it's done this happens alot the trucks get used so much that they go through tires like underwear. We are still waiting on the whole meds thing and period thing nothing yet so we are just waiting to see what happens. Will for sure post if things change and maybe something EXCITING will happen!!!

Waiting!

I have to say that I am not a fan of the waiting game it's not fun guess I better get use to it! Today I got a call from my doctors office telling me that the insurance needs more info on me and my history and that they need to send a letter with more details, so that means that it's going to take even longer to get the approval and that I just need to keep taking the ovulation tests and if any are positive to call and they will call in the Clomid. Femerra is stronger of the two and Clomid is more likely to give you twins!! Have to say that I would be so freaking excited if that were to happen and so would the mother-in-law... So today I went to the pharmacy to get more test and they are like $18.00 for a pack of 7 so not to bad but still sucks to pee on it and throw it away nothing like throwing your money away but it will all work out in the end we hope! I also grabbed and two pack of pregnancy test just to have on hand that is a suggestion from the doc office! Well that's all the news that I have so far will update more when I get hopefully good news! Wish us Luck!

Update!

So I am still waiting for Dr. Johnson to authorize my meds!! And an top of all this I am starting to cramp really bad the lasts two days and I am just hoping that I can hold out until I can get my meds first since I am suppose to start them on day three, the meds are Femerra and Estradiol and it is fertility so most insurances won't cover it and it takes about a week to get it authorized from the insurance. If it doesn't get approved in time then they will give me Clomid which I have tried before I just had to start taking ovulation tests on Monday and they have been negative everynight so I don't understand all the cramping that I am having! We had a really fun weekend I got a chance to go to the movies with my nieces Bailey, Brinley and my sisters Teri and Sandy Sue! We took them to see the movie Justin Bieber "Never Say Never" I have to admit that it was really good and he is an amazing singer for only being 16... And to make the event even more memorable the fire alarm went off sending my nieces into a panic!! Come to find out on the way out that it was a fake and to return and they would turn the movie back on! With all this going on I had to be out of the movie by four to get Zack back to Layton cause we were in Brigham and he was Doug's date to go to the Sportsman bouquet that night note that the tickets were $150.00 a piece but have a chance to win really fun gifts like guns and accessories home decor for the women and a really nice dinner! Zack had a really fun time he loves going to things like this and says that we are all going next year I told him to start saving his pennies!!!! Today is Sunday and Zack and I went to bed really late last night and so we slept in until 11:00 and then watched a whole season of "The Big Bang Theory" that Zack is in love with! not going to lie very funny! Well that's about it so I will update when I get Doc to authorize my meds!!!

Post-Op Appointment!

The appointment went really well!! My doctor and I went over the pictures he says that my uterus looks really healthy and the tubes looked really good. I did have a cyst in my uterus that he removed and sent it to the lab to have tests run and there is no cancer but a little of Endometriosis but got it all out during the surgery! So my next question was are these going to come back and he said yes unless we get pregnant and I strongly suggest you do that cause if you wait then the cysts could be back and then would have to have the surgery again to remove them cause there really is no way to get pregnant with the amount of cysts that I have and also the size of them. So he said that he wants to start fertility pills and get the ball rolling! I was excited to hear him talk to me cause he sounded to hopeful and really thought that we have a chance right now to get pregnant cause my body just isn't going to wait until I am a little older! I said ok let's do it! He wants me and Zack to really be close this week and then start Femerra on the first day of my cycle and then Estradiol and on day 14 come back for an Ultrasound! I am so excited I am just trying not to get my hopes up! After the appointment Zack text me cause he was out of town and couldn't come so his mom offered to come and I was glad that she did cause you know how doctors start to talk in there own language and it all starts to blend and you leave thinking now what are we doing! And she has been through all this. We are also going to get Zack tested to make sure that he is working for us and not against us if you know what I mean! So Zack asked me how it went and I told him really good and the the Doc says "LET'S GET PREGNANT NOW"!!! Zack said "Let's do it then"! I cannot tell you how blessed I am to have married the best cheerleader! He is so uplifting and he just knows that everything is going to work out! So I left feeling really hopeful and just at peace again not trying to get my hopes to high but we are just so excited!! Zack is going to be the best dad I see the way that he is with my nieces and nephews and I just love it and they love Zack so much! Well I guess that is all there is for now just waiting time now to start my period or in hopes that Zack and I can just do it now on our own since the surgery was such a success!! If this time doesn't work then we are going to check more into Zack because when he was about 15 he had a hernia and undescended testicle and they really didn't say much cause he was so young to know if it would effect him being able to have children. Sorry this is so detailed but this is my journal and I want my kids to know how hard we tried to have them in our family and to know how much they are loved!

Surgery

I finally went in February 6th to see my doctor about all the bleeding that I have been noticing. And he said that its one of two things it could be Cysts or a really irregular period I was thinking that it was the period thing cause last I knew we had the cysts pretty under control so I thought... So he said lets do and ultrasound and that can tell us exactly what is going on... Sure enough cysts and they are getting bigger and more of them. So he looks at me and said that I need to seriously need to look into having a laparoscopy done and get them gone and check for other things and make sure that there isn't anything else going on. I had talked to Zack about it awhile ago and we just kinda put it off so I called Zack and he said let's do it just to make sure that there isn't any damage going on. I said ok I trust Zack with anything and I know that if he thinks that it's something that we need to do then it needs to be done. So we set the date for February 15th at the Davis Surgical Center. I was getting really scared! Zack assured me that everything will be ok and that he will be there with me! I couldn't have done it with out him.. So we got there at 11:00 my surgery was at 12:00 got all the insurance figured out and then waited for them to take me in. Finally they called us back and took us into a room to go through allergies and what was going to happen during surgery. They gave me an oxy cotton to help settle my nerves down I was scared about taking it all I was thinking was people get addicted to these. Next they took me to the bed and I got into my gown and booties and put these ugly white stockings on to help from getting blood clots. Then the nurse comes in with all kinds of things for my IV now I have had them before but not while I was awake... needless to say she had a really hard time getting it I got really light headed and thought that I was going to pass out..Next thing I knew I was taken to the surgery room and I was out!!! I woke up asking for Zack and that was all that I wanted!! Zack came in with pictures and telling me that he talked to Dr. Johnson and he found that there where 40 Cysts but everything else looked great!! I couldn't believe it no wonder we weren't getting pregnant! As I mentioned in the post before Zack threw out his back and is still trying to get it to relax so that he can stand straight. 2 weeks later today I have my appt. with Johnson tom and I am really excited and anxious to see what he thinks cause I didn't get to see him after the surgery and I want to know alittle more on what he thinks!! Will the answer be LET'S GET YOU PREGNANT NOW CAUSE YOUR BODY IS BEING INPATIENT! so many feelings and thoughts I just hope that I am able to make the right decisions~ I will let you know how it goes and what the Doc. has to say tom!!!