Last couple weeks!

So remember me saying that we hope there are no more suprises?! Well I went to a regular check up on December 23rd and I was talking to my doctor and how I was feeling some pressure and he said then we need to check you so I got ready and he comes in and measures my belly for growth and then we listened to the heart beat and everything was normal as always....then he checked me and he looks at me and he says wow baby has dropped extremely low he said a stage 2 of 4 I guess is how low he described it...Started to panic I was at this appointment by myself and it was scary he all of a sudden started to talk about how long he would be in the hospital if he were to come this early and that I needed to get a series of shot to help his longs develope faster if he does come early and he gave me about 2 weeks he would be here for how low he dropped...Scared me to death Im not going to lie...He put me on bed rest pretty much no lifting no cleaning nothing.. and then he said that he wants me off work for two weeks and then we will see where things are at and if I could go back to work then...Well I went for another appointment on December 27th and he checked me again and he looked at me with the same look and he said your DIALATED to a 2 and he isnt as low as he was but he is right there...I started to cry a little and sweet Dr. Johnson he just knows how to comfort you and make sure that you are well taken care of.

So needless to say I have been off the last week and I have another week off luckly my mom and mother in law are employees of the school district so they have kept me company being off for holiday vacation. We have decided to move the Denson shower to January 7th to help get some things that we need.

We are excited but at the same time it's too early for Wyatt to come now we would love to see him and hold him but we want him to be healthy and strong. I go every wednesday now for OB Check appointments and everyweek is a milestone cause I am still pregnant and baby is baking longer then expected!! Hopefully Wednesdays appointment there are no suprises and he can stay in a little longer!

I will keep you posted!!

Our Reagan is now a Wyatt!!

I have to write about what happened on Thursday October 20th 2011.....here it goes... we had a appointment on Thursday at 1:45 with a tech for our 23 week BIG ULTRASOUND and everything was normal and great. And we had invited our moms to come to the appointment with us and they were excited. So they get there and we head up to the doctor office and for some reason I just had this feeling that something was going to change that day wasn't sure what yet but just something...so I get layed down and she puts the gel on and the tech asks me if we are finding out the gender and I said yes and we have been told by our doctor that it's a girl and he was 90% sure and she said right away that she hates when doctors do that cause you really cant tell until you have the big ultrasound and you are far enough along that you can know for sure.. So I said ok well lets have a look! She checks babies head and then she goes down to the "Parts" and she says this baby is a BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I think that we all were going to die so she stops this video to an image and sure enough clear as day there was no doubt that it was a LITTLE ZACK!!She left it on the picture for a moment and said that it dont get clearer then that I was in shock I just started to cry in excitement...I cry at every ultrasound but this one really threw me for a loop...I look at Zack and he is just grinning from ear to ear he secretly wanted a boy all along and I knew that secretly too.

So I thought that our moms where going to just about die we had all the bedding for a girl made and clothes and bows all ready pretty much. They started to text the rest of the family and everyone just couldn't believe it as much as we couldn't.

SO WE ARE HAVING A BOY!!!! And we are super excited we have changed the bedding to Moose and trees and it is going to turn out perfect Zack is on cloud nine lately and I am so excited to see him with his little buddy cause he is

so darling with little kids!

We have tons of pictures of the ultrasound and ones of Zack and I right after the biggest shock of our lives thus far so I will post the material we are putting in the bedding and then others if I can get them from my mom.

We have a name we love Wyatt Zackary Denson so I think that is what it is going to stay we have loved this name from when we were planning for kids years ago and for some reason it just stuck and we love it...

Well hope you stay tuned and that we don't have anymore surprises.

It's a GIRL!!

We went to our Dr appointment on Friday Sept. 9th at 9:00am and we were so excited cause we got to finally see what we were having. Almost everyone was guessing a girl and some thought a boy... I had a feeling a girl and Zack didn't care either way... as I was laying down to have the ultrasound about a thousand emotions hit me all at once.. doctor checked babies head, arms, legs and heartbeat and said that baby had long legs...Zack pipes up and says yeah it wont the a stub like kenzi!!! Thanks Honey!! and then he flipped the view and there was a bum and he said that girls have two lines and boys have one there was clearly two white lines and he said that it is still a little early to say 100% girl but he is 90% sure its a girl and on October 21st when we have our big ultrasound then you will see it clear as day! I started to cry of course and Zack was really quite for a minute.. I think just to let it all sink in. WE ARE SO EXCITED!!! We started to call people before we left the Dr office and we were told by my friends that I work with at Tanner Clinic we had to come down and tell them before we left so we did and they were all excited for us!

Zack and I had the day off so we went shopping and let me just tell you we are in big trouble the girl selection is so adorable and you just want everything!! We got a few outfits and then we were heading up to Brigham for Peach Days!!

I am so thrilled to be a mom and I cannot believe how much love I have for our baby girl already...Zack and I were in JcPenny and all of a sudden it hit Zack and he looked at me and said we are having a girl and he just grabbed me and gave me a hug! I love Zack I love how supportive he is and how patient he is with me through the pregnancy! I think that he was calling and telling people for about two hours after our appointment!

We have a couple names but nothing for sure! We love Reagan or Laynee so we will keep those in mind!

Stay tuned......

4 Year Anniversary!!

I cannot believe that Zack and I have been married for 4 years!! Time is just flying by!! And of course this year I get to spend it alone cause Zack is in California for the week and It's not very fun I have to say.. It has been a long week but he gets to come home tomorrow!

I have to say that the last 4 years have been amazing I have the best husband in the world he reminds me everyday that he loves me and cares about me and that is why I am such a lucky girl I really got a good one and everyone who knows Zack will say that he has the biggest heart and wants to help others whenever he can! I love him so much!

We are just excited to find out what we are having on September 9th it just cant get here fast enough I haven't been sick at all just the occasional heartburn but that is the worst of it and I am so grateful! Thanks to my mom she has blessed me!!!

Well next post will wether we are having a BOY or GIRL!! stay tuned!!

Our 4th of July weekend!!

Cute Baby Kaleb Camping
Our Four Wheeling Crew


Zack Showing that there is snow in July!



Going for a ride!



At the BBQ Shooting Guns!





We had a really fun 4th this year seriously non-stop!! We left our house Friday around noon or so and we went to Frefrickos a family tradition for years and then we all meet at our spot on the lawn by the stadium! Fireworks were amazing Logan does a pretty good job...Saturday we made plans to have a BBQ with friends and then the boys were shooting clay disk things and then we went over to the cruisin in Logan to watch people get pulled over and get Questioned by police the whole night, then we went to friends house and had a fire and roasted hot dogs and marshmallows!! It was tons of fun!!





Sunday we went up Logan Canyon to the Franklin Basin Tim and Keara and the cutest baby were camping up there so we packed a lunch with my mom and dad and went four wheeling and had lunch with my cousins the Smith Family!! We played and played for hours went on really cool four wheeler rides and I cannot tell you how much water there is I didn't really understand how much everyone said there was until I saw it!





Monday was the 4th and we all went and had breakfast at my moms and then we went to the car show and went to check out all the new LEGAL fireworks you could buy now...Not to mention we had a stach of ILLEGAL fireworks that were fun too! The whole family went to Tim and Keara's house and had dinner and then we made a homemade slippery slide with a peice of plastic and then it wasn't slippery enough so we got dish soap and that seemed to be the trick!! So Much Fun and the neices loved it too, then we went to the Brigham fireworks at the park and that was fun to be right under the fireworks!! Love the 4th of July so fun to be with Family and Friends and just play!!!

8 weeks Appointment!

8 Weeks

6 Weeks

So today we got to go and have another ultrasound and I was lucky to get another one so soon after the first...Doctor wanted to make sure on what week I was on couldn't figure out if it happened in April or May!! We were so excited to get to see our baby it feels like forever and you start to miss seeing the baby...

Today's appointment was an experience that we will never forget we got to see the heartbeat for the first time and I just couldn't stop smiling he checked the heartbeat and all of a sudden he said that he thinks it's a GIRL I was like how do you know and he said that girls have really fast heartbeats and boys have slower heartbeats...It comes from medicine history in the 1800'S...I said ok now you can't tell me that cause I really want a girl and he said that he is almost positive that it's a girl!! Then I couldn't get the smile off my face for the rest of the appointment...I just kept thinking that nobody knows this yet at 8 weeks you have to wait until you are about 16 weeks to find it out!! We must be special!!

I saw the heartbeat right away I didn't even have to think twice about it I pointed it out before the doctor had a chance to tell me that's what it was!!

I cannot believe how fast they grow I mean from the first ultrasound to two weeks later how much our baby has grown...Doctor explained what the perfect circle was and he called it the "Yoke" it helps to keep the baby intact to mamma and if you can see it clear then you are in pretty good shape for the rest of the pregnancy and that is a really good sign..He said that he is sad to report that everything looks great...I get anxiety when I go to our appointments I just really hope for everything to be ok and then I leave feeling so at peace and that I have seen the baby and everything is ok!! Is this my motherly instincts kicking in already!!

My biggest worry about becoming a mom is that I am going to be a good mom and that I will know everything there is to know about being a mom! I have the best husband in the world and I know without a doubt that he will be the best dad! I cannot wait to see our baby on August 5th seems so far away but I really want to take every moment in cause it can go bye so fast!

I have felt ok for the most part I cannot complain the worst is the no appetite at night and the Heart Burn but it COULD BE WORSE my mom told me that she was never sick so I love her for giving that to me! Here is one of the pictures that we got today!! ENJOY WE ARE!!! I will also post the 6 week ultrasound can't see much but it's there!! And we are only having one!!

Our First Dr Visit!!

Really hard to see but here is our little baby!! Or spaceship as Dr. Johnson call it!!! It was so exciting so see our little baby really growing inside me after so much work to get it here...And so far it's only one but it's a little early to see if there more... Dr Johnson says that he thinks that I am 6 weeks instead of 8 weeks so I am going back in two weeks on July 6th to see how much bigger baby had gotten!!!

We are having a BABY!!!!

Announcing we are having a BABY!

Everyone catching on

The screaming and hugging!

After the news with our families!

We had a miracle happen to us last weekend!! As many of you may know we have been trying to have a baby for about a year and went through surgery and infertility drugs and emotions...We were starting to think that it just wasn't our time and that there was something else first.. Well we firmly believe that it was Zack having his back surgery and that helped me to just relax about having a baby and get him better...

Well it worked and I had so many people tell me that it will happen when your not trying...My last period was April 17th 2011 and I was getting closer to may and was thinking that I was going to start and I never did so I waited and waited and finally went into my doctors office on Monday May 23rd and they did a pregnancy test and it was negative. They told me to come back on Friday May 27th first thing in the morning and they would do another test cause the Clomid can set it back a little! So I did and it was negative again and right away I thought my cysts are back they have to be cause I only didn't have a period when I had cysts....Scared me alot!! So they gave me a progesterone shot that should start a period in about 2 weeks and if I am pregnant it will only benefit me and the baby will do no harm....So Last Saturday June 11th I still didnt start my period and it had been two weeks and I always start with the shots....So I went and bought a pregnancy test and took it first thing in the morning on saturday before the Garage Sale and it was positive I couldn't believe it I started crying so hard I ran to Zack and he was still half a sleep and he was so excited!!! I took another test on Sunday cause I really just couldn't believe it all this time and I am going to be a mommy finally! First thing on Monday I called my Doctors office and they sent me to do blood work and sure enough I was pregnant!!

They were booked so our first appt is June 22nd at 10:45am and we are so excited to see our baby I am 8 weeks along and I am feeling really good I have some heartburn and I can tell when I need to eat something cause I get sick to my stomach!

My Birthday was last night on the 17th and we decided to announce it cause we were having a BBQ with my family and Zacks Family and so we planned to take a picture with everyone and on three everyone say KENZI IS PREGNANT!!!! They all looked around and kinda laughed and they got serious and then all started to scream and giving hugs I have pictures to show how it all went!!!

Summer and Birthdays!

We had the best yardsale on the 11th of June it was a fundraiser for my cousin Tanner who suffered with cancer for a couple years and passes away from cancer at 19 years old in May 2011. Our family got together and decided that we would have a yard sale and all proceeds would go to help pay for medical bills..Then Tanner passed away and so we decided that we still needed to do this for my Aunt Kristi.. So we spend days getting things together we had friends just donate stuff to us to sell and they asked for nothing in return it's amazing to see a family come together and support one another...We had a friend who was moving and pretty much gave everything in her house to the yard sale! We had my moms driveway and lawn full of stuff and people where coming left and right from about 8:00-3:00am it was so cool and people would give money even if they didn't owe any and they would ask about tanner cause we had a poster with his pictures on it and it was a humbling experience for me and my Aunt is a very greatful and loving and wonderful mom she was so strong and she misses him so much...The best part was giving her the $1800.00 that we raised from the Yard Sale and we were all speechless we couldn't beleive it she was so greatful...(my uncle robert is a chef at coppermill in logan and he made us Chicken enchiladas for lunch and it was amazing THE BEST COOK EVER!!)...

We also got to go to one of Daxtons T-ball games and I was so excited cause living far away we dont get to go to many things like that and I was sick with Bronichitis and laryngitis (Spelling?) but I wanted to go anyways! It was the cutest thing I have ever seen he was so excited and his dad my brother Greg is his coach and he was so cute to him! Dax had a blast he kept giving everyone thumbs up! LOVE HIM!!

Well Friday is my Birthday and I will be 23 years old this year and I am excited but then that means I'm getting closer to 25 and that scares me for some reason! Zack planned a BBQ with the whole family mine and his.. Can't wait to see my neices and nephews!! Well so much going on and the summer just started!! Stay Tuned!

ADDICTED TO COUPONS!!

So this last weekend we went to the funeral for Tanner and then it was my nieces birthday and she turned 8 years old I cannot believe that she is that old already seemed like yesterday that she was being born! She is getting baptized in July with her cousin so that family only has to travel once. We had so much fun we all got up really early on Saturday to go to yard sales I have to say that is one of our favorite things to do together we almost got to all of them and there was alot... Went to an estate sale and they had things for sale in the house and you just asked to see them if you were interested and I am pretty sure that my family should have just bought the house considering that we bough everything in it... We all got sunburns from playing on the four wheelers the rest of the day and then we went and seen Pirates of the Caribbean 3..

But what I really wanted to write about today was my shopping trip with my sister Keara she is addicted to coupons as much as I am maybe even worse.. She had all her coupons and her price matched items all listed and ready to go...Her total was $350 and after coupons and priced matched Items she only paid $190.00 Freaking amazing I was so excited for her and she was too!!! Right away I got more into it... I have always loved coupons but was never aggressive enough to show huge savings...So I have this new favorite blog listed in my blog lists!! Love it so helpful and shows you how to begin and everything!! Can't wait until my husband gets back to work so I can use my coupons and start saving money!!!

In Memory Of Tanner Smith

My cousin Tanner Smith has been fighting cancer for many years and late last night we got the phone call that he had passed away in the Primary Children's Hospital May 14th 2011. I was very shocked and I just couldn't believe it. He was in so much pain and we know now that he is no longer in pain and that he is sealed to his parents and brothers and sister's for eternity and that they will see him again..We will miss Tanner he had a motto through out all the cancer "Forever Strong" we all had wrist bands that said this on it and he was a hero to us all... He never wanted to give up he never wanted to stop things that where happening in his life including getting a mission call to Baton Rough, Louisiana but never got to go because the cancer had come back.

My last memory of Tanner that I have being with him was the summer that we did Relay for Life in Brigham City at Pioneer Park in 2010 the whole family came together and we had shirts and we sold tons of different things to help raise money to get more funds for research to help cure cancer...We played in a softball tournament too!! And through all this it was a over night event and someone in your group needed to be awake through the whole night whether you switched off with others or whatever it took...I stayed up all night and didn't sleep at all! I have to idea why but I felt very humbled as I sat through the whole night thinking about life and what Tanner has been through and that I could do this one night for him...We raised around $500.00 dollars and we where thrilled about it we all had sun burns and over all a great experience....

We will miss our Tanner and we love him and know that he is serving his mission in heaven now! I love my Family and how this has brought us together and how we have learned to serve each other in every way possible! We Love you and think about you everyday.

In Memory of Tanner Smith...

Zack Surgery!

OK so alot has happened the last couple weeks as many of you know Zack has a bulged disk in his lower back and had very sharp pains down his leg. So we have been going to Dr. Bean and he put on through the process of meds home exercises and nothing was helping I mean nothing even to the point that it was getting worse....So I ended up taking him to the ER last Tuesday night really knowing that there was nothing that they could do but just give him the good meds! MORPHINE!!! And that is exactly what they did it at least got him through the night so that he could sleep..Then I called Dr. Bean office the next day to talk to the MA and see what she thought and she said lets move his appt. up and get him in for an MRI and see what is really going on... So we got through the MRI really hard for him to hold still cause you really have to be still or everything comes out blurry. We had a follow up appt. 3 days later. We walked in to doctors office and he said that he saw his MRI results and it doesn't look good at all and that the shots wouldn't help and that we just need to go right into having the surgery...We both looked at each other knowing that Zack doesn't get paid time off and he would be out of work or any activities for at least 2-3 months!! PANIC!

On the other side of this we were really excited because that meant some relief that we have been hoping for the last 6 months..Surgery was on May 9th 2011 at 4:00pm we where running some errands trying to stay busy and we got a phone call from the Davis Hospital at 3:15 saying that they need to redraw his blood again his White blood cells came back really high at 14 on last Friday from the pre-op..So we jumped in the car and got there and they said that if it comes back to high still then they will have to decide if he can have surgery or not cause that means that there is an infection somewhere in his body and that doesn't help to heal after surgery...All makes Since..... so it came back at a 7 which is normal they started right away getting him ready for surgery it was an hour and a half surgery and then he would be taken to the 3rd floor for recovery overnight..I really wasn't nervous I had tons of family there with me and there support means so much to us...Next thing I knew they where coming in to get me to see him and go to the room with him..He looked up at me and his eyes where blood shot he was feeling good!! He grabbed my shirt and pulled me in to give me a kiss and he completely missed and it happened to fast I couldn't make sure to aim right....He said right away that he was feeling better which we had been told before that you feel better immediately after cause the bulged disk isn't pinching his nerve anymore which is scary cause most people think that they can just jump right back into the daily stuff cause they feel so much better. He was able to get up and walk around and eat something and keep it down so he got to go home the next morning around 10:30am. Dr.Svagr was the surgeon and he said that he recommended that Zack find a new line of work cause this surgery is something that happens to 40+ year olds...I had the first week off with him and was able to watch him and make sure that he really takes it easy.. He has been ok he was feeling some pain yesterday and so he just layed down and did nothing....Stay Tuned Pictures to come!!!

On top of all this the baby plans have been put on hold for now and it has been a hard thing but I have come to know for myself that this is why we weren't getting pregnant there was something else that was needing to happen first and someone knows that I couldn't be pregnant and help Zack get through surgery and through the recover! Zack said that we will be starting again without a doubt!! LOVE HIM!!

We had Mal's BABY SHOWER yesterday it was alot of work but she loved it and she got a ton of stuff! Lots of family support!

Will post pictures Soon!!!

POOR ZACK!

I cannot tell you how bad I feel for Zack right now last night I just lost it cause I see him in so much pain and there is nothing that I can do to help..It got so bad last night that I called Dr. Beans on call doctor and he said that there really is nothing that you can do when it comes to a bulged disk and pain shooting down his leg. So he just said to get a comfortable as possible and when you find the spot stay there he did also send more meds to the pharmacy for Zack's Norco to get us through until Monday.. Monday Zack is getting a cortizone shot and we are praying that it will help he got one in his shoulder and it has helped so much to the point that there hasn't been pain for a couple years! We are really hopeful that it will work... I also have a doctors appt Monday at 9:15 to have a ultrasound to see if I have eggs! So overall should be a very fun day together then we get to some home and work on the Grapefruit (Zack's work car) it needs a new head gasket those are always fun to work on... We had a really fun easter with my family in Brigham I got to see the temple and how fast it is being built I can't believe that my home town is getting a temple we refer it to the promise land! Well that is about all that is going on with us hopefully tomarrow goes really good and we get to see something good come from the shot!! Wish us luck!

What next!

So Zack and I went in to the Tanner Clinic Lab on saturday to get blood drawn for Progestrone, Estrogen and my Prolatin tested...Zack and I were think and thought that we were told we would find out if we are having a baby with these tests done! HAHA so being excited and everything I go to work and they finally called me to sign a paper for the HCG Shot that they gave me cause some insurances won't pay for it and they want you to know that before they give it to you so you know that it's in your responsibility if it's not covered..So It's not covered so I have to pay $50.00 for that lucky us...So while I had them on the phone I asked if my blood results had come back yet they said no But they found Zacks Semen Analysis results and his White Blood Cells are increased and he need to see a urologists to get it medicated so that is what we are doing Monday...So about 3:00 they called me back and said that my results are in and everything looks really good! That is something that has worked for us today! So next to the antisipation of finding out today we have to wait and see if I have a period or not if nothing then I have to wait another week and if nothing by the 24th or 25th then to take a pregnancy test! If I have a period then we start over again and go back on the clomid.

POSITIVE!!

HAHA you thought that it was a positive pregnancy test!! We wish! But a really big step for us this last Saturday was that we got a positive Ovulation test WOOT WOOT! I cannot tell you how excited we are..I cannot tell you how much I was starting to believe that these things didn't work..I have been through 3 boxes and they are $18.00 a box..So I was having cramps Saturday morning so I thought that I would take a Ovulation test and see if it was positive..No joke like 5 seconds it was already showing a positive so I screamed a little and I ran to show Zack who was still in bed and I said what happens now...he didn't know so I called my mother- in-law she has been here and knows what happens next and in a really blunt way she says you and Zack need to be really close the next couple days! I said oh ok!! So I had to call and tell my mom as well cause this is a huge step considering that we have been through surgery just to get a normal period and then ovulate..I felt so excited I finally felt like there was hope and that we could be on to something!! So we have snuggled alot lately and I go in on Saturday April 9th for blood work to see if I am pregnant!!! I am once again trying not to get our hopes up but it's so hard! I took a picture of my Positive test I will post it so that you can see!

Dr.Appointment!!!!

So Zack and I went to the doctors today and we did an ultrasound to check everything and he said the best news ever! I thought that we would never get to this point! We have eggs, healthy eggs to work with one is very strong and the other will do......So the surgery did what it was suppose to do.... so Zack and I get to be really snuggle for the next two days and then on April 9Th I go in for blood work! And did you know that Mucinex helps to keep your body clean and running smooth just like it does for your nose when you are sick? so he wants me to get started on the today and then they also gave me an HCG shot to help my ovaries get through then next week or so...I was so excited about this appointment cause I really thought that I was going to get more bad news and FINALLY good news...now all that the Doc said was to Zack you can do this and we knew exactly what he was talking about and Zack said I can do this! I love Dr. Johnson I swear he is the best doctor there is he sure knows his stuff and he really gives you all that you need to get pregnant! So today I am feeling really excited that things are finally going now we just need really good swimmers!!!!!!!!! Today is Friday and we have Kaleb's 1st Birthday Party tomorrow I cannot believe that he is 1 already crazy how time flies!! Love that little man he is such a sweetheart!

We also went to Dr. Beans office on Monday and Zack has a Bulged Disc and a blown knee but the back is the worst.. so he put him on tons of different meds but he seem to be getting worse he tried his exercise Monday night and he woke up at 2am in so much pain that I was really scared for him and I didn't know what to do for him but he is just trying to get through it if none of this works then he is going to get steroids through an epidural and see if that helps.....If that still doesn't work then Surgery it is and he will be out for at least 3 months...NOT GOOD! But I would rather him feel better and look better as many of you know that have seen him he is just in so much pain...Wish us Luck! Stay Tuned!!

Emotions!!

Well we didn't get good news from our insurance they didn't feel that there was a need for it and because it is a fertility drug they will not cover it so it would be $211.00 out of pocket if the Clomid doesn't work. So I started on March 20th and I am on Clomid insurance doesn't cover this either but it's only $34.00 out of pocket and your more likely to get twins on this! We would be so excited to have twins I have no idea why but I would be so excited! So I am taking 2 50mg pills a day so 100mg total....That's a ton considering that Zack mom got pregnant on just 25mg and got twins! CRAZY!! This medicine has the most waked side effects...HEADACHES....BLURY VISION....MOOD SWINGS....HOT FLASHES! Not very fun but I know that it will be worth it in the end! I am on Day 6 today of the cycle so I have tom to take my last 100mg of Clomid then I start Estradiol from day 8 to ovulation. I have an appointment on April 1st for my ultrasound and that is when we will find out if we are pregnant or not I am really trying not to get my hopes up but it's so hard not to when we have been trying for about a year now! Zack is super excited he keeps telling me that our babies are going to be spoiled and that we are not going to go the cheap route if we are going to do this then we are going to buy quality stuff to last along time! I love Zack and he is the best supporter ever!

WHAT A WONDERFUL HUSBAND I HAVE!

So I found these pictures on my camera today and just really wanted to share them of how beautiful they are and how much I Love my Husband and everything that he does for us!!

I Love You Zack!

If you have a wonderful man, who helps balance your whole world, who isn't perfect, but is perfect for you. Who works hard and would do anything for you, who makes you laugh and drives you crazy, who is your best friend, who you want to grow old with, and who you are thankful for everyday, and who you could not live without then tell them you love them everyday.

I HAVE THE BEST ONE!

Life Of The Traveling Husband....

I swear that I just get Zack back and he is gone again...It's not fair!!! He was in St.George last week working and getting a sunburn in the warm weather. He was really excited for the ride home cause he found out that he gets to drive his bosses Corvette home...My first thought was there goes our Insurance! Zack didn't like that to much! He got the biggest kick out of it and couldn't wait to get the pedal to the metal, he was excited to report that he got it to 120mph and I said that I could have went all day not knowing that..But he was excited about it so whatever. He got home around 6:00pm Friday and then found out that he is leaving for Pueblo Colorado on Sunday so just home long enough to wash clothes and pack them back up. I hate when he leaves on a Sunday it makes for a really long week. Saturday March 2011 was the Sportsman Expo at the South Town Expo Center and we just couldn't miss it so I said ok to going cause the only way that I would get to spend time with Zack was if I went and I like those kind of things anyways so what the heck, we spent all day walked around for about 5 hours, ran into my brother and sister-in-law Tim and Keara and the Cutest baby Kaleb love him I have a really cute Picture of Zack and Kaleb playing on the big boy toys they had at the show I will post the picture! We finally got home and had dinner and then we had to get home to pack for Zack to head out by 9am Sunday! So I woke up at about 8:30 which is really late for me and went in to ask Zack when is needs to leave, he said that he needs to pick up Doug at 8:30 I said "HONEY" It's 8:30!!! He flew out of bed and was in a panic!!! So of course he was late and I just got a phone call that he is in Laramie, Wyoming and they blew out a tire so they are at Walmart hanging out until it's done this happens alot the trucks get used so much that they go through tires like underwear. We are still waiting on the whole meds thing and period thing nothing yet so we are just waiting to see what happens. Will for sure post if things change and maybe something EXCITING will happen!!!

Waiting!

I have to say that I am not a fan of the waiting game it's not fun guess I better get use to it! Today I got a call from my doctors office telling me that the insurance needs more info on me and my history and that they need to send a letter with more details, so that means that it's going to take even longer to get the approval and that I just need to keep taking the ovulation tests and if any are positive to call and they will call in the Clomid. Femerra is stronger of the two and Clomid is more likely to give you twins!! Have to say that I would be so freaking excited if that were to happen and so would the mother-in-law... So today I went to the pharmacy to get more test and they are like $18.00 for a pack of 7 so not to bad but still sucks to pee on it and throw it away nothing like throwing your money away but it will all work out in the end we hope! I also grabbed and two pack of pregnancy test just to have on hand that is a suggestion from the doc office! Well that's all the news that I have so far will update more when I get hopefully good news! Wish us Luck!

Update!

So I am still waiting for Dr. Johnson to authorize my meds!! And an top of all this I am starting to cramp really bad the lasts two days and I am just hoping that I can hold out until I can get my meds first since I am suppose to start them on day three, the meds are Femerra and Estradiol and it is fertility so most insurances won't cover it and it takes about a week to get it authorized from the insurance. If it doesn't get approved in time then they will give me Clomid which I have tried before I just had to start taking ovulation tests on Monday and they have been negative everynight so I don't understand all the cramping that I am having! We had a really fun weekend I got a chance to go to the movies with my nieces Bailey, Brinley and my sisters Teri and Sandy Sue! We took them to see the movie Justin Bieber "Never Say Never" I have to admit that it was really good and he is an amazing singer for only being 16... And to make the event even more memorable the fire alarm went off sending my nieces into a panic!! Come to find out on the way out that it was a fake and to return and they would turn the movie back on! With all this going on I had to be out of the movie by four to get Zack back to Layton cause we were in Brigham and he was Doug's date to go to the Sportsman bouquet that night note that the tickets were $150.00 a piece but have a chance to win really fun gifts like guns and accessories home decor for the women and a really nice dinner! Zack had a really fun time he loves going to things like this and says that we are all going next year I told him to start saving his pennies!!!! Today is Sunday and Zack and I went to bed really late last night and so we slept in until 11:00 and then watched a whole season of "The Big Bang Theory" that Zack is in love with! not going to lie very funny! Well that's about it so I will update when I get Doc to authorize my meds!!!

Post-Op Appointment!

The appointment went really well!! My doctor and I went over the pictures he says that my uterus looks really healthy and the tubes looked really good. I did have a cyst in my uterus that he removed and sent it to the lab to have tests run and there is no cancer but a little of Endometriosis but got it all out during the surgery! So my next question was are these going to come back and he said yes unless we get pregnant and I strongly suggest you do that cause if you wait then the cysts could be back and then would have to have the surgery again to remove them cause there really is no way to get pregnant with the amount of cysts that I have and also the size of them. So he said that he wants to start fertility pills and get the ball rolling! I was excited to hear him talk to me cause he sounded to hopeful and really thought that we have a chance right now to get pregnant cause my body just isn't going to wait until I am a little older! I said ok let's do it! He wants me and Zack to really be close this week and then start Femerra on the first day of my cycle and then Estradiol and on day 14 come back for an Ultrasound! I am so excited I am just trying not to get my hopes up! After the appointment Zack text me cause he was out of town and couldn't come so his mom offered to come and I was glad that she did cause you know how doctors start to talk in there own language and it all starts to blend and you leave thinking now what are we doing! And she has been through all this. We are also going to get Zack tested to make sure that he is working for us and not against us if you know what I mean! So Zack asked me how it went and I told him really good and the the Doc says "LET'S GET PREGNANT NOW"!!! Zack said "Let's do it then"! I cannot tell you how blessed I am to have married the best cheerleader! He is so uplifting and he just knows that everything is going to work out! So I left feeling really hopeful and just at peace again not trying to get my hopes to high but we are just so excited!! Zack is going to be the best dad I see the way that he is with my nieces and nephews and I just love it and they love Zack so much! Well I guess that is all there is for now just waiting time now to start my period or in hopes that Zack and I can just do it now on our own since the surgery was such a success!! If this time doesn't work then we are going to check more into Zack because when he was about 15 he had a hernia and undescended testicle and they really didn't say much cause he was so young to know if it would effect him being able to have children. Sorry this is so detailed but this is my journal and I want my kids to know how hard we tried to have them in our family and to know how much they are loved!

Surgery

I finally went in February 6th to see my doctor about all the bleeding that I have been noticing. And he said that its one of two things it could be Cysts or a really irregular period I was thinking that it was the period thing cause last I knew we had the cysts pretty under control so I thought... So he said lets do and ultrasound and that can tell us exactly what is going on... Sure enough cysts and they are getting bigger and more of them. So he looks at me and said that I need to seriously need to look into having a laparoscopy done and get them gone and check for other things and make sure that there isn't anything else going on. I had talked to Zack about it awhile ago and we just kinda put it off so I called Zack and he said let's do it just to make sure that there isn't any damage going on. I said ok I trust Zack with anything and I know that if he thinks that it's something that we need to do then it needs to be done. So we set the date for February 15th at the Davis Surgical Center. I was getting really scared! Zack assured me that everything will be ok and that he will be there with me! I couldn't have done it with out him.. So we got there at 11:00 my surgery was at 12:00 got all the insurance figured out and then waited for them to take me in. Finally they called us back and took us into a room to go through allergies and what was going to happen during surgery. They gave me an oxy cotton to help settle my nerves down I was scared about taking it all I was thinking was people get addicted to these. Next they took me to the bed and I got into my gown and booties and put these ugly white stockings on to help from getting blood clots. Then the nurse comes in with all kinds of things for my IV now I have had them before but not while I was awake... needless to say she had a really hard time getting it I got really light headed and thought that I was going to pass out..Next thing I knew I was taken to the surgery room and I was out!!! I woke up asking for Zack and that was all that I wanted!! Zack came in with pictures and telling me that he talked to Dr. Johnson and he found that there where 40 Cysts but everything else looked great!! I couldn't believe it no wonder we weren't getting pregnant! As I mentioned in the post before Zack threw out his back and is still trying to get it to relax so that he can stand straight. 2 weeks later today I have my appt. with Johnson tom and I am really excited and anxious to see what he thinks cause I didn't get to see him after the surgery and I want to know alittle more on what he thinks!! Will the answer be LET'S GET YOU PREGNANT NOW CAUSE YOUR BODY IS BEING INPATIENT! so many feelings and thoughts I just hope that I am able to make the right decisions~ I will let you know how it goes and what the Doc. has to say tom!!!

So Many things so little time!

Zack and I have been so busy he has been working out of town alot lately and doesn't seem to be stopping anytime soon.. We had a really interesting week about two weeks ago.. I was on Tuesday February 15th and I had surgery that day at Davis Surgical Center Zack was so sweet with me in making sure that I was comfortable. So that night we came home and he was getting me settled and he went to plug in my heating pad and Zack who already has a bad back, shoulder and knee bent over to plug it in and threw out his back.. I think that he played it off a little cause he didn't want me to worry about him.. Zack set up this phone system that if I needed anything I was to call him and he would be right in GREAT IDEA!! Glad to know that when it comes time to have kids I will have a planner with me! Well there was no need for me to call the Sweetheart that I have come in about every hour to make sure that I was ok and see if I needed anything. By morning time I tried to call for him and he didn't answer me (forgot about the phone Idea) So I got up and went in to see if he was ok, he couldn't move not even get out of bed and he will kill me for posting this but he was crying cause he wasn't able to help me. So I called everyone I knew to see what to do and before I knew it I had Zack's Dad and Sister Sam my mom and dad and my sister Dana. Mom of course started cleaning right away and Zack's dad took him to see the doctor. Gave him Muscle relaxers and pain killers! Great him on strong drugs and I was on Fun ones too! For about 4 days we watched movies and we had meals brought from family and neighbors! Thanks to everyone for your love and help!